I sat down with a piece of paper and pen.
I wanted to write down inspirations for portraits & the lid never came off the pen.
The paper stayed blanked.
It wasn’t that my mind was empty. I didn’t have writers block. It wasn’t that I didn’t have any ideas. I just couldn’t find the words to write to express my creative thoughts. My mind recently has been full of everything and I just wanted to have the world stop so I could get off! Do you ever get like that?
Our moods & emotions all very much influence our work. How well we produce a service. How we go about motivating ourselves. How we interact with a client. How we do the job, how we edit an image & how we deliver an end result. So when all you want to do is curl up in a room, with Grey’s Anatomy reruns and a never ending supply of tea, how do we motivate ourselves in times of being glum.
I looked down at the pen and paper and instead of writing down what I wanted to have as inspiration for portrait work, I wrote down what was in my head. What was bothering me. no matter how silly or small the issue, if it was niggling me it was to be on that list.
Do you know what happened?
The pen lid didn’t stay on & the paper didn’t stay blank.
Now, you’re probably thinking, why is this photographer telling us she’s been feeling like crap, we don’t care. But here’s the thing. I’m telling you because as a single parent, working my butt off to create a business that can sustain a life for me, my two children and our dog, while taking care of everybody else, run a house, do the school runs for dropping off forgotten items, taking my eldest to college and bringing her home again, food shopping, doctor appointments, dental appointments, fitting in Autism training too and everything else we do in life, there comes a point where you put everybody else as a priority and not yourself. It becomes overpowering, you become stressed and tired. Give me a Amen! if you’re the same. And if you’re also like me, the biggest cup you have filled with tea or coffee just isn’t helping, then you need to take a step back and regroup. So you’re not alone. I’ll give you a dreary high five and say yes! I’m exhausted with life too. Recently I have found myself sitting down at the end of the day and the leaky eyes start. It’s perfectly ok not to be ok.
So I made my list.
I have written down every single thing that has bothered me recently.
I have written down every single niggle and nudge that has got on my nerves
I have written down every single issue that is causing my stress levels to shoot through the roof.
Then I reread that list. I asked myself these questions:
A) IS IT IMPORTANT?
B) WILL IT EFFECT ME IN THE NEXT 12 MONTHS
C) CAN I CHANGE ANYTHING TO MAKE IT BETTER
D) CAN I FIND A SOLUTION TO THE ISSUE
Is it important? may sound like a daft question but it’s one that is ironically important. if you are worrying over something that isn’t important. that has no effect on your life over the coming months or forever why let it get to you.
Will it effect me in the next 12 months? A lot can happen in a short period of time. It can lead to a knock on effect throughout your life. If you have something that is on your mind and it will NOT have an effect on your life in the next 12 months. let it go. If it will then lets find the solution
Can I change anything to make it better? Of course you can. You make choices every day. You need to look at your options and decide what is the best choice you can make. if you can change something, make the change. if you don’t, you can’t say you tried right?
Can i find a solution for the issue? There is always an answer to a question. If there is no immediate solution to a problem, get yer brain into gear and let’s get creative to figure something out. even if it’s just a temporary fix, it will give you time then to work out a better solution.
So if you’re like me, and things have been piling up. Firstly, and remember this is important. It’s ok to cry and break down. It’s how you pick yourself back up and carry on that’s important. If you need to talk to someone, do it. The more we bottle things up the harder we find a solution. And it’s fucking lonely and hard to do things on your own. I get it! Sometimes we don’t have anybody else. Be strong for yourself. And if you’s ever feel like you just want to get things off your chest, that somebody knows, you can email me. Just let it all out, get it off your chest and if you would like my opinion just ask. a problem shared is a problem halved right.