Today I had a mini panic attack.
I thought that because HE hadn’t been in touch for a couple of days the crap had hit the fan again. I sat for hours going over my social media conversations to make sure I’d not said anything to him to cause any offence and I thought back to our last phone conversation but couldn’t think of anything that may have caused radio silence.
But I had this sickening deja-va sensation. But what caused me to stress wasn’t even that I hadn’t heard from him as such, it was the thought of getting back in touch with jinx to send him the message and see if all was ok. I didn’t know if I could do it. I was scared to say Hi incase he came back angry with me.
My mind was racing, my heart rate was quickened, I felt nauseous. And all for nothing.
I’m a nightmare!!!